I'm bored

....but I dont have enough time to actually write about EVERYTHING going on
me and Justins 9 month anniversary is today (caz its the 25th :P) and every day i fall more and more in love with him :)
school- i cant trust anyone there, not one single person and its stinks. Stephen is just too in love with danielle to see y i was mad at her so whateer he was just pretending to be a friend to me b4 caz now we arent anymore, ariel just started ignoring me for no reason but whatever she just brought on a whole bunch of drama for me, danielle is a backstabber and she didnt care otherwise she would have taken all that dance stuff back but she just really wanted to go with ryan caz she liked him, i hate hw and papers, and i might transfer schools or just drop out and get my ged
home- stress and depressions isnt that great? yeah now im taking these gay pills for depression because of all this stupid stuff that really shouldnt be anything but people are just so stupid and its really pathetic! I try sooo hard i freaking kno im trustworthy and people can tell me anything and i just hope that i find ONE FREAKING PERSON that i can tell everything and actually trust them with it u kno? but i never will and it makes me so mad....
so that pretty much wraps up things not in detail but just to keep u all up sry again :(

I'm bored

....but I dont have enough time to actually write about EVERYTHING going on
me and Justins 9 month anniversary is today (caz its the 25th :P) and every day i fall more and more in love with him :)
school- i cant trust anyone there, not one single person and its stinks. Stephen is just too in love with danielle to see y i was mad at her so whateer he was just pretending to be a friend to me b4 caz now we arent anymore, ariel just started ignoring me for no reason but whatever she just brought on a whole bunch of drama for me, danielle is a backstabber and she didnt care otherwise she would have taken all that dance stuff back but she just really wanted to go with ryan caz she liked him, i hate hw and papers, and i might transfer schools or just drop out and get my ged
home- stress and depressions isnt that great? yeah now im taking these gay pills for depression because of all this stupid stuff that really shouldnt be anything but people are just so stupid and its really pathetic! I try sooo hard i freaking kno im trustworthy and people can tell me anything and i just hope that i find ONE FREAKING PERSON that i can tell everything and actually trust them with it u kno? but i never will and it makes me so mad....
so that pretty much wraps up things not in detail but just to keep u all up sry again :(

I would write more often...

but i just dont have enough time, & now I dont want to caz mom started to read my last one out loud when Justin was in the room. SO I am just not going to write anything else in here unless you ask a specific question, sorry...I was going to delete it altogether, but ya I dunno how. Any questions, go ahead and ask.

My slate is wiped clean :)

And it feels like I have a new life :) & let me tell you, I am loving life! Justin os the most amazing thing that has happened to me ever. I love him with everything I have, and yes, I actually can SAY it to him because I mean it :) & He loves me too, which makes it better because it takes two ya kno :P



He just makes life worth living :) We have sooo much fun when we are together & Prom was too great! Of course, it's not JUST him who makes me so happy (even tho he is to blame for most of it) I have some of the best friends anyone could ask for too. Danielle, Stephen, Sean, Mel, James....etc they all add in & help out :)
So yeah I guess you could say I am pretty happy right about now. If you want to know anything don't hesitate to ask caz I dont mind talking I am very open with my life lol...
But yeah, again, I am sorry I never write on here, I mean to really I do...I just get distracted by myspace or something lol.
But yeah anyways...this weekend was so much fun! Friday night was the 8th grade play & Sandy was sooo good! Saturday I went over to Justins & went with him to his friend Derk's graduation party, & I actually had a lot of fun :) Then after that he came back here where we met up with Arash & went to Danielles 16th bday party & I had a lot of fun there as well. We went swimming & danced and stuff so it was pretty cool. & Today....well I should be doing my paper, but I am way to lazy to actually do it...& Justin has 2 papers & is responsible so I cant hang out with him & all my other friends are being responsible & cant hang out either :( I am such a bad student...but what do you expect the last week of school? It's just like pshhh its the last week!! no one wants to actually do anything lol. Yeah okay I am being a nerd again. So yeah okay you ppl need to comment on this so that I actually dont feel like I am just writting to no one mkay? Thanks :)
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Happy Days are back again!

Yay! lol well yeah, so you all know that my life did a comeplete flip around in the opposite direction from where I once was. (It was a bad place lol) But yeah so you all have heard about Justin by now, my official boyfriend one a week & a day, yeah I kno not too long. But either way he makes me so happy :)

I love spending time with him. I am kinda sad that he is leaving saturday for the senior trip :( for 12 days! Oh well, at least I get to hang out with him Friday night after the senior play. But yeah I am really sorry I havent been on in forever, I know I always say that but yeah.....I am trying to catch up mkay? Plus mom sorta does for me :P
Okay well besides that & Prom I actually have good grades! We just got them in today & I have A's & B's & one c+ but only because we have only had like 4 assignments lol. I am really happy I have been doing a lot better this tri, better than all c-'s anyways! Haha okay I will ttyl guys bye <33

I'm such a loser

Sorry guys!
Sooo much has happened...
I'm sure moms told you most of it if not heres a little bit...
Umm Grades wayy up! =]!!
Jason = NOT WORTH IT, been over him a LONG time....new thing ;P wanna see?
Yeah he's a cutie, names Justin, I think I might have a little thing for him....but shh lol.
so ya, I mean thats basically wat I talked about so ya.
Morro I am having a bbq :)
Ariel, Danielle, James, & Mel, possibly stephen & justin are all comming. so ya should be fun!
& I'm suppost to go see the date movie with Justin this weekend, but we will see what happens then!
kk thats about it 4 now byezz

<3 I'm still in love....even tho it hurts Sad huh?Well I am really sorry for not writting in...well a longggg time.Okay, well....ummm...I thought i was done, over with, foret him, he's not worth my time....well, I guess I just went thro a stage or something....I love him, so much, more than anything, i would do anything for him, or to have him back. It really hurts...gosh I miss him...okay I am really sorry, I really am not trying to be all dumb. Lol well last time I wrote I was mad at James, we are good now lol. Actually I thought I liked him for a while, but I guess i was just trying to get over Jason untill I realized there is no way caz I love him too much...& he was worth my wait. Am I being dumb & unrealistic here?I need some help...I mean i am going on with my life, my grades are actually pretty good, I am having fun with my friends, but i just want to give him a big hug & kiss & for him to tell me it was all a bad dream um kno?.....ya...well anyway, we finally won our girls games (first ones ever!!) (2 of em) so that was awesome! & we have one morro, which I hope to do really good in so that I might have a chance at MVP again.....but it's hardly going to happen, which makes me sad....so lets cross our fingers!Yaaa, so party this weekend after the game, then Ariels house, those are my plans for the rest of this week, but I'm trying to just go day by day...OMG EXACTLY 4 months til I am 17!!! Sweeeet lolmkay ttlycomment me!!Fawn

Sad huh?
Well I am really sorry for not writting in...well a longggg time.
Okay, well....ummm...I thought i was done, over with, foret him, he's not worth my time....well, I guess I just went thro a stage or something....I love him, so much, more than anything, i would do anything for him, or to have him back. It really hurts...gosh I miss him...okay I am really sorry, I really am not trying to be all dumb. Lol well last time I wrote I was mad at James, we are good now lol. Actually I thought I liked him for a while, but I guess i was just trying to get over Jason untill I realized there is no way caz I love him too much...& he was worth my wait. Am I being dumb & unrealistic here?
I need some help...I mean i am going on with my life, my grades are actually pretty good, I am having fun with my friends, but i just want to give him a big hug & kiss & for him to tell me it was all a bad dream um kno?.....ya...
well anyway, we finally won our girls games (first ones ever!!) (2 of em) so that was awesome! & we have one morro, which I hope to do really good in so that I might have a chance at MVP again.....but it's hardly going to happen, which makes me sad....so lets cross our fingers!
Yaaa, so party this weekend after the game, then Ariels house, those are my plans for the rest of this week, but I'm trying to just go day by day...
OMG EXACTLY 4 months til I am 17!!! Sweeeet lol
mkay ttly
comment me!!
Fawn

What a week this has been

Man, this has just NOT been my week. All week has been spirit week, you would expect spirit week to be great. Well, it wasn't. I have been half sick all week. I was told I can't see Jason outside of school, not even after football season. This is a MAJOR bad thing, because of all this I can't concentrate in school caz I am trying to suish in any time we have together and it stinks. My grades are going way down as a result. Not that it is his fault in anyway, or anyone elses, it is my fault, I am just saying.....so anyway, there was our homecoming football game. Not only did we lose 46 to 0 my Jason got hurt. omg i was bawling my eyes out!!! Someone came and hit him in the chest, hard! He was taken to the hospital in the emergency room. Luckily, it was only some bruised ribs....I want to see him so bad, I am waiting for a phone call from him to see if I am allowed to, please pray for him you guys. And also for his dad, we need him to stop being strict and just to open up you know? Anyway, he was suppost to be my escort at the game, but because he was down I didn't even want to be in the thing. But James ended up escorting me, I didn't win, but one of my best friends Jessie did and I am so happy for her! More than anything I just wanted to get away from there because the abulance was picking him up in one of those carry things...........I miss him. I need to seee him, soon. Like....really soon....anyway, here are some pics of me and him this spirit week.

Sci Fi day *my fav pic of us*

Disney day *we were Woody and Jessie*

Fashion Clash day *He is too cute*
mkay, that is all I have for now, I am off to get my dress for the dance tonight.....bye

What a week this has been

Man, this has just NOT been my week. All week has been spirit week, you would expect spirit week to be great. Well, it wasn't. I have been half sick all week. I was told I can't see Jason outside of school, not even after football season. This is a MAJOR bad thing, because of all this I can't concentrate in school caz I am trying to suish in any time we have together and it stinks. My grades are going way down as a result. Not that it is his fault in anyway, or anyone elses, it is my fault, I am just saying.....so anyway, there was our homecoming football game. Not only did we lose 46 to 0 my Jason got hurt. omg i was bawling my eyes out!!! Someone came and hit him in the chest, hard! He was taken to the hospital in the emergency room. Luckily, it was only some bruised ribs....I want to see him so bad, I am waiting for a phone call from him to see if I am allowed to, please pray for him you guys. And also for his dad, we need him to stop being strict and just to open up you know? Anyway, he was suppost to be my escort at the game, but because he was down I didn't even want to be in the thing. But James ended up escorting me, I didn't win, but one of my best friends Jessie did and I am so happy for her! More than anything I just wanted to get away from there because the abulance was picking him up in one of those carry things...........I miss him. I need to seee him, soon. Like....really soon....anyway, here are some pics of me and him this spirit week.

Sci Fi day *my fav pic of us*

Disney day *we were Woody and Jessie*

Fashion Clash day *He is too cute*
mkay, that is all I have for now, I am off to get my dress for the dance tonight.....bye