Live to Dream

I'm bored

2007-01-24T23:32:00.001-08:00

....but I dont have enough time to actually write about EVERYTHING going on
me and Justins 9 month anniversary is today (caz its the 25th :P) and every day i fall more and more in love with him :)
school- i cant trust anyone there, not one single person and its stinks. Stephen is just too in love with danielle to see y i was mad at her so whateer he was just pretending to be a friend to me b4 caz now we arent anymore, ariel just started ignoring me for no reason but whatever she just brought on a whole bunch of drama for me, danielle is a backstabber and she didnt care otherwise she would have taken all that dance stuff back but she just really wanted to go with ryan caz she liked him, i hate hw and papers, and i might transfer schools or just drop out and get my ged
home- stress and depressions isnt that great? yeah now im taking these gay pills for depression because of all this stupid stuff that really shouldnt be anything but people are just so stupid and its really pathetic! I try sooo hard i freaking kno im trustworthy and people can tell me anything and i just hope that i find ONE FREAKING PERSON that i can tell everything and actually trust them with it u kno? but i never will and it makes me so mad....
so that pretty much wraps up things not in detail but just to keep u all up sry again :(

I'm bored

2007-01-24T23:32:00.000-08:00

I would write more often...

2006-08-05T15:41:00.000-07:00

but i just dont have enough time, & now I dont want to caz mom started to read my last one out loud when Justin was in the room. SO I am just not going to write anything else in here unless you ask a specific question, sorry...I was going to delete it altogether, but ya I dunno how. Any questions, go ahead and ask.

My slate is wiped clean :)

2006-06-04T13:30:00.000-07:00

And it feels like I have a new life :) & let me tell you, I am loving life! Justin os the most amazing thing that has happened to me ever. I love him with everything I have, and yes, I actually can SAY it to him because I mean it :) & He loves me too, which makes it better because it takes two ya kno :P

He just makes life worth living :) We have sooo much fun when we are together & Prom was too great! Of course, it's not JUST him who makes me so happy (even tho he is to blame for most of it) I have some of the best friends anyone could ask for too. Danielle, Stephen, Sean, Mel, James....etc they all add in & help out :)
So yeah I guess you could say I am pretty happy right about now. If you want to know anything don't hesitate to ask caz I dont mind talking I am very open with my life lol...
But yeah, again, I am sorry I never write on here, I mean to really I do...I just get distracted by myspace or something lol.
But yeah anyways...this weekend was so much fun! Friday night was the 8th grade play & Sandy was sooo good! Saturday I went over to Justins & went with him to his friend Derk's graduation party, & I actually had a lot of fun :) Then after that he came back here where we met up with Arash & went to Danielles 16th bday party & I had a lot of fun there as well. We went swimming & danced and stuff so it was pretty cool. & Today....well I should be doing my paper, but I am way to lazy to actually do it...& Justin has 2 papers & is responsible so I cant hang out with him & all my other friends are being responsible & cant hang out either :( I am such a bad student...but what do you expect the last week of school? It's just like pshhh its the last week!! no one wants to actually do anything lol. Yeah okay I am being a nerd again. So yeah okay you ppl need to comment on this so that I actually dont feel like I am just writting to no one mkay? Thanks :)
<333

Happy Days are back again!

2006-05-03T17:01:00.000-07:00

Yay! lol well yeah, so you all know that my life did a comeplete flip around in the opposite direction from where I once was. (It was a bad place lol) But yeah so you all have heard about Justin by now, my official boyfriend one a week & a day, yeah I kno not too long. But either way he makes me so happy :)

I love spending time with him. I am kinda sad that he is leaving saturday for the senior trip :( for 12 days! Oh well, at least I get to hang out with him Friday night after the senior play. But yeah I am really sorry I havent been on in forever, I know I always say that but yeah.....I am trying to catch up mkay? Plus mom sorta does for me :P
Okay well besides that & Prom I actually have good grades! We just got them in today & I have A's & B's & one c+ but only because we have only had like 4 assignments lol. I am really happy I have been doing a lot better this tri, better than all c-'s anyways! Haha okay I will ttyl guys bye <33

I'm such a loser

2006-02-25T00:14:00.000-08:00

Sorry guys!
Sooo much has happened...
I'm sure moms told you most of it if not heres a little bit...
Umm Grades wayy up! =]!!
Jason = NOT WORTH IT, been over him a LONG time....new thing ;P wanna see?
Yeah he's a cutie, names Justin, I think I might have a little thing for him....but shh lol.
so ya, I mean thats basically wat I talked about so ya.
Morro I am having a bbq :)
Ariel, Danielle, James, & Mel, possibly stephen & justin are all comming. so ya should be fun!
& I'm suppost to go see the date movie with Justin this weekend, but we will see what happens then!
kk thats about it 4 now byezz

<3 I'm still in love....even tho it hurts
2006-01-19T18:25:00.000-08:00
Sad huh?
Well I am really sorry for not writting in...well a longggg time.
Okay, well....ummm...I thought i was done, over with, foret him, he's not worth my time....well, I guess I just went thro a stage or something....I love him, so much, more than anything, i would do anything for him, or to have him back. It really hurts...gosh I miss him...okay I am really sorry, I really am not trying to be all dumb. Lol well last time I wrote I was mad at James, we are good now lol. Actually I thought I liked him for a while, but I guess i was just trying to get over Jason untill I realized there is no way caz I love him too much...& he was worth my wait. Am I being dumb & unrealistic here?
I need some help...I mean i am going on with my life, my grades are actually pretty good, I am having fun with my friends, but i just want to give him a big hug & kiss & for him to tell me it was all a bad dream um kno?.....ya...
well anyway, we finally won our girls games (first ones ever!!) (2 of em) so that was awesome! & we have one morro, which I hope to do really good in so that I might have a chance at MVP again.....but it's hardly going to happen, which makes me sad....so lets cross our fingers!
Yaaa, so party this weekend after the game, then Ariels house, those are my plans for the rest of this week, but I'm trying to just go day by day...
OMG EXACTLY 4 months til I am 17!!! Sweeeet lol
mkay ttly
comment me!!
Fawn

What a week this has been

2005-10-08T09:44:00.002-07:00

Man, this has just NOT been my week. All week has been spirit week, you would expect spirit week to be great. Well, it wasn't. I have been half sick all week. I was told I can't see Jason outside of school, not even after football season. This is a MAJOR bad thing, because of all this I can't concentrate in school caz I am trying to suish in any time we have together and it stinks. My grades are going way down as a result. Not that it is his fault in anyway, or anyone elses, it is my fault, I am just saying.....so anyway, there was our homecoming football game. Not only did we lose 46 to 0 my Jason got hurt. omg i was bawling my eyes out!!! Someone came and hit him in the chest, hard! He was taken to the hospital in the emergency room. Luckily, it was only some bruised ribs....I want to see him so bad, I am waiting for a phone call from him to see if I am allowed to, please pray for him you guys. And also for his dad, we need him to stop being strict and just to open up you know? Anyway, he was suppost to be my escort at the game, but because he was down I didn't even want to be in the thing. But James ended up escorting me, I didn't win, but one of my best friends Jessie did and I am so happy for her! More than anything I just wanted to get away from there because the abulance was picking him up in one of those carry things...........I miss him. I need to seee him, soon. Like....really soon....anyway, here are some pics of me and him this spirit week.

Sci Fi day *my fav pic of us*

Disney day *we were Woody and Jessie*

Fashion Clash day *He is too cute*
mkay, that is all I have for now, I am off to get my dress for the dance tonight.....bye

What a week this has been

2005-10-08T09:44:00.001-07:00

NFL Game Friday

2005-09-29T19:25:00.000-07:00

This is my BESTEST friend in the WHOLE world and my twin isn't she THE SWEETEST THING EVER!?!?!?! lol I am a loser anyway......
Yup yup that is right, we have a game tomorrow! Let's all cross our fingers and hope Jason does AWESOME!! lol, I don't want him to lose his self esteem!! I don't want to be like ya he's second quarterback, I like saying just plain old quarterback ;) haha
ya but anyway, I had like 3 tests today...they actually turned out a lot easier than I anticipated....so that was great! Except for I found out my grades in all my classes, and lets say...they aren't very good....isn't that wonderful?...anyway so what all haven't I said yet, ummm oh ya, the whole crosscountry thing that we got in trouble for? Ya I was told by Mr Fritzmiller that he doesn't want me to go to anymore of them because he thinks I am a destraction...which is gay, it's not my fault, at anytime Jason could have been let's go back, but he didn't and of course that is MY fault...but w/e....umm homecoming, first it was no way, now its I dunno if we are gunna be in town...ahhh this is driving me nuts i really want him to be able to go!!!!! I don't see y dancing is such a big thing, his parents are saying the whole intamacy thing....but okay, we are DANCING!! HULLO!!! It's not like we are doing anyhting else you know?...I don't know, I think they are kinda over protective. Jason is a great guy, and he knows better than to do the stuff the are freaking out about. Mkay, well I really talk about him too mcuh, I am really sorry, I can't help it I can't go even 2 min with out thinking about him! What is wrong with me!?!?!?!?!?!?! But ya, umm I am really tired and I have to go take a shower and make cookies for our cheer bakesale morro....yay....lol well ya so ttyl much love! <333 Fawn

I LOVE life right about now except....

2005-09-24T16:22:00.000-07:00

Alright....wow I need to keep up. I am so sorry guys! Okay....well latly things have been graet because I have this AWESOME guy! If you read my moms, I know you have seen him. He is the sweetest guy I know, and he cares about me sooo much! He has even told me he loves me....I haven't said it back yet, I don't know, I just don't want anything bad to happen with us. I mean he has actually said he is IN LOVE with me....and idk that is a BIG thing for me to hear, at first I was like oh it's just something that's not gunna last....but he said he really means it and he wrote me a note telling me why he loved me and I told him that love to me is wanted to spend the rest of your life with sumone and you can't live w/o that person....omg u know what he said!!?? He was like oh I thought that was implied!! AWWWWWW!!! Okay, you see me and Jason have been friends since 8th grade, and we both have liked each other since then...and we tried the whole bf/gf thing last year....but it only worked out for like a week caz I was the biggest loser and I regretted that more than I have ever regretted anything.Ya, so anyway that's a little bit of background....so we are trying this again, he is not OFFICIALLY my bf....caz he has to concentrate on football....he's the quarterback, and the football players at my school aren't really suppost to have gfs untill after fb season....so that stinks...but it's okay, I made him wait all this time, it's only fair right ;P haha....anyway, the bad things about this....
his parents....they don't want there little boy holding hands with a girl and all that stuff....they saw us holding hands at Lake Havisue...that wasn't good. We got a ticket, 3 hrs community service, 2 supervised lunches, his parent won't let us hang out outside of school until after football season, and I couldn't cheer at the fb game last wednesday. Ya, that stinks!! Then today at the crosscountry meet, we went walking around the lake and we stopped in the shade....mr fritzmiller came over and he was super mad that we weren't over by everyone...but it was break time! and his race didn't start until the VERY end....so ya b/c of that I might not go to Havisue again, which is lame, but w/e....anyway....so I guess that's pretty much everything lol.....ummmmm ya, well Jason makes me soooooo unbeliveably happy. I am happier than I have ever been in my whole life!! OMG it was sooo cute at the ccountry meet today we were talking and somehow we were talking about last year when we tried this, and he knew the exact date and time he asked me out and what day it ended...OMG!! how horrible is that i don't know that kind fo stuff and HE DOES!!! AHHH!!! I thought it was sooo sweet!! Man I am crazy about this guy! Mkay, well here is a pic of the cutie in case you haven't seen it:

Isn't he sooo cute! lol wow, I am crazy....well I should stop writting now....I will try and keep up I am sorry! Oh...about pretty much everything here shhhh mkay? hehe alright have a great day! Love, Fawn

Haha sorry...

2005-08-23T22:14:00.000-07:00

Well school started, not today monday, but last monday, and already drama....
of course, I am in the middle of it because of lies and stupid rumors, it makes me soo mad when people go around saying that I did something or said something that I NEVER said, may have heard it from someone but I don't go around telling people you know?? Ahhhh, anyway....it's calmed down now that, that four faced liar has finally left, poor Jello though, it makes me so mad that I won't be able to hang out with her because of that lil witch!! It's so gay....anyway, sorry I haven't written it will be harder now with less time and school work and stuff you know? So just write me messages on myspace, caz i always check that, or email me mkay bluangelgirl23@aol.com....yup well i guess that is pretty much it except that we have a scrimmage on friday!!!!!!! YAY!!!!! And then our pep rallie (that me and Ariel are in charge of) on thursday and our first REAL game on friday!!! YESS I am SOOOOOO excited!! Oh well thats wat i get for loving football sooo much!!!!!! hehehe okay goodnight all luv ya much, oh and HAPPY BDAY SANDI!!!! <3333 Fawn

Wednesday

2005-08-10T17:41:00.000-07:00

Well, it is now wednesday, and I can finally post something. Sandi (moms bestest friend) is here visiting!! She is such a sweetheart I just love her to death! lol anyway, she is cooking for moms birthday, which is TODAY!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM!! mmmmm let me tell ya it smells good in here! lol, anyway, I have been helping around at school for the past two weeks, the yearbooks are finally done and should be comming out anytime soon!! :) yay! umm let's see...I should have Bible Study tonight, but I'm not sure if I will be going because of moms birthday dinner, lol. School just keeps getting closer and closer....I can't wait until monday, I finally get to see my friends again on a regualr basis! Umm not too much else going on around here. Saturday I guess I am going to the school all day to help out Mr. B. with a school cleaning day, that is, if nothing better happens to be put out in front of me :) lol, ummm ya, I would put a whole bunch more on here, but I'm scared of who all would be reading it, from like myspace and stuff you know? So ya, I'll write when I can, when I have something intresting to tell y'all lol. So ya, Amy wants on now, bye!! <33 Fawn ohhh and here is our new cheer uniform what do you think??

YAY A NEW POST!!!

2005-08-05T00:06:00.000-07:00

Mkay, just wanna say one thing, I dont like posting unless I like get some sort of comment, I dunno, that's just how I am....lol. Anyway, let's see what's been going on with YOU guys?? I would like to know. I had cheer camp, I cant wait to show everyone at school the great dance and new cheers we learned!! lol anyway, this past wek I have been working on yearbook, it's finally going to come out!!! YESSSSS....lol anywayz, I also get to watch football practice, OMG.....let me tell you, its some HOT stuff!! hehehe, ya then I just kinda hang out with them for a while and whatever...then, ya. Umm what else...we had the orientaion thing tonight, mr b. likes to talk, it would be okay, if I hadnt heard the same thing 4 years in a row now lol. Oh well, so tomorro Danielle and Cara are comming over! YAY!! :) lol ya so hopefully we will go to the mall after hanging out with the football players, and yearbook, then my house, then mall. So ya that's my hope pla, oh ya, and then Chuys that night...wonderful...I just LOVE chuys...hope you caught my sarcasm...lol. But ya, so I just posted caz mom told me to, so mkay, I think im done now, if u want to know nething else, theres not much, ive been more busy latly than i have almost all summer. so thats cool, and monday-friday next week volleyball and whatnots starts, so that will be cool too, then SCHOOL finally starts the 15th!! lol. ok, now im really done!! Oh!! Here is our new uniforms!! if i can get it on my pics site thing lol so ya ok bye!

Fun Fun

2005-07-22T01:36:00.000-07:00

You guys sooo have to look at all of my pictures....PLEASE commment!!! hehe anywhos heres the link again: http://fawnspics.blogspot.com/
:) much <333 lol.....so ya. Umm I went to my friend Mels last night that was pretty cool. We watched Aladdin and The Wedding Singer...two of the GREATEST movies ever....of course you knew about Aladdin because my wedding song is on there so duh lol. Adam Sandler and Drew Barrymore are my favorite movie couple ;) (50 first dates) also a GREAT movie....I'm a sucker for romantic movies and blah blah...I cry when it gets sappy lol....pretty sad huh? Umm what else? Ohh I found these cute blinkie things check them out :)
hahaha cool beans huh? I steal....ahem....borrow these from people lol. Anyway...I am really tired....but this is about the only time I can actully get on the compuer and not worry about people bothering me to get off so I can actually write to you all. Hmmm, well tomorrow is friday.....no plans yet, which is sad, I mean friday? No plans? For a 16 year old!!?? OMG what is this world comming to!? Ha, ya too bad my parents never just let me go....I know they want to watch over me...but I have to make my own mistakes and chioces don't I? Even then, they should know me well enough to not get caugh up in "what's cool" caz it's lame...maybe that's just me I dunno.But ya...it stinks for me....It's not that I'm a COMPLETE loser...I could find someone to go do something I'm sure lol...I just can't. Oh well....at least I can say I have it better then some people. okay, well I think I have rambled on long enough, I don't have much to talk about anyway hehe. SO I'm going to go to bed now...I am awake on about 5 hours of sleep in 2 days!! YESSSSSSSSSSS.....haha okay, goodnight all much <3 *mwah* <3 Fawn

Hey there

2005-07-19T02:00:00.000-07:00

Ha, well I have to write something new now in order to have more comments ;) lol. So umm oh, I can't believe how many old friends I found on myspace, I found at least 6 from my old Christian school Bethany. I haven't seen any of them since the middle of 7th grade. So it's nice to be talking to some of them. Let's see what else? I've bee drawing some more, here's just a pretty cool picture that mandy took when I was in the middle of making Jasmine (my favorite Disney princess)

Kinda cool with an effect-y touch don't cha think? It was funny, I tried to make Dawn, but she looks evil, so ya, we won't put that one on here lol. Umm today was pretty good, I kinda feel asleep after my soap, as you all should know it is called Passions...hehe. So I didn't do much after I woke up except eat dinner then go do my exercises. After that me and Christiane decided to make an even tougher exercise plan than I was doing for cheer. So in the morning we start it, then after we are done with that we are going to look for jobs, I don't think I am going to get one though because with school work, and all of my after school activities, I won't be able to keep a steady job, which really stinks. Let's see, Wednesday I am going over to my best friend Mels house, then that night I have "Bible Study" which we are going bowling where I used to bowl all the time. ( I think I mentioned this before) Then I don't know what else I'm doing, I was invited to do stuff, but I don't know what's going on, until Saturday I am going to Missys (Amys friend) for a Birthday BBQ, which I am SOOO EXCITED ABOUT CAZ IT MAKES ME COOL!!! (haha that was for you Missy!!) lol anyway, so that's my plan so far. Hope I could entertain you for the time being :) Until then....buh bye <33

CHECK THIS OUT!!

2005-07-17T02:52:00.000-07:00

Guys I am like sooo proud of myself, look at my pics blog, it is soooo awesome, please please please please!!! COMMENT!!! Thank you!! much <3

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Awesome

2005-07-16T00:52:00.000-07:00

Well, if you read Christiane's post, then y'all know that everything is all patched up, which is awesome. So I am very happy about that. Ummm let's see, today I went to the mall with one of my BEST friends Mel, oh and Paul came too (hahaha Paul, if you're reading this) Ya, so we hung out at Fiesta for a while, I found out some, interesting things.....but ya, then we came to my house and hung out untill Paul left, then me and Mel we talking for a while, and she's asleep now. I can hear my mom talking to Mandy about the way she dresses. I can't stand what a hoochie she tries to be. She wears oober tight shirts and shorts that are too small for her. I can't stand that. She's one of those people who just wants a lot of attension about it, but whatever. What else? Well, nothing new...some good things today, some bad, some sad....haha anywho, yupyup. So okay, I'm done being boring, TTYL! <33 Fawn

Oh wow....

2005-07-13T23:42:00.000-07:00

Okay, really, am I the only person who thinks this is annoying? When you are in the middle of talking and someone just interrupts you to say what THEY think? Ya....That's never fun. Noone can take me seriously, I know I like to have fun, and I'm not that much of a serious person....but when I am trying to be serious, why does everyone just laugh at me? I don't get it, I try to sort it so people know when I'm being serious and when I'm not, but I guess that's just not good enough. Anyway, Bible Study was pretty cool. Next week we go bowling instead from like 7-9, it should be fun. The funny thing is it's where I used to bowl all the time, I had this huge crush on this one guy, it's sooo funny, if you really wanna know email me and I'll let you know okay? Anyway, I have been sooooo bored, there is really nothing to do here...at least with Dawn we had some fun, here I can;t have any fun. I don't know, I am really bored though, so I'm writing this. Well Sandys getting all mad now, so I gotta go! ttul much <33! <3 Fawn

Latley

2005-07-12T20:23:00.000-07:00

Well, yesterday was cool. I spent the night here with Dawn "house sitting" and I am again tonight. So I just wanted to write something in here. Ummm, ya I think today was a pretty good day, nothing bad. Not much to do when you don't have anyone to do anything with though. I have Bible Study tomorro night, I always look forward to that. Then I'm going with my family to Melissa's birthday party saturday. Here with Dawn we don't do much, we have watched a few movies, actually I think I've seen about 6 total movies in the past two days lol. What can I say I love movies! Okay, well Dawn wants me off now to play cards so I will talk to you all later okay? <33 ya <3 me

Great....

2005-07-09T18:24:00.000-07:00

Well, my life is hunky dory....I swear, my days just keep getting better and better!! Complete sarcasm there people....ok, let's start at the top.

Well, I keep getting promises form people who don't keep them. I am gong to be COMPLETELY honest here, and I'm not just saying this stuff because I am mad, this is the truth. I was promised that I was going to go to the movies with Christiane on Friday with her friends...did that happen? NO! Of course it ddin't...well it's okay, at least we were going to go to church on Saturday night together, oh wait, it is saturday night and guess what? I am at HOME!!! She also said on Wednesday night after we couldn't go out that the next time we went to church (suppost to be today) I would be able to go out with them, did that happen either? NO! Oh, well do you see a pattern here? I do, tomorro we are suppost to go to a church thing at 11am or sumthing, are we going to go to that? Well, let's look at this pattern, and my guess would be NO!!! Just great, everything is wonderful isn't it? Well since I am talking about Christiane, and she's is going to raed this, I might as well let it all out. For one, rules aren't different for her. She shouldn't be able to use the phone for more than 15 minutes just like the rest of us, or call boys for that matter. She shouldn't be able to have food and drinks in her room like we can't, or go out until like 1 am, and I am not the only person who thinks this, my parents agree, but she doesn't care!...Now she's all chummy with mandy, the person I can't stand!! And she isn't even who I thought she was, she puts on an act that shes all nice, but she just stabs you in your back, watever...I am done...

EVERYTHING

2005-07-07T08:27:00.000-07:00

Okay, I just need to get everything out. First of I am very p'oed at almost my whole family. I'm 16 years old, I should be able to start making some of my own decisions, no? Well my best friend forever and I were planning this trip for about a year now, and because there were some interruptions I couldn't get on the plane with her and go. So she found me this really cheap ticket that I could fly and meet her and her Grandma out there and we would hang out on Mrytle Beach for a while then we would all drive back to Arizona in her Grandmas moter home. Well Mom and Dad are really really REALLY making me mad because they won't let me go. It's for like two weeks, and they are fraeking out because I will leave Christiane here, and she IS part of our family now, and I don't see any need of having to hang out here if she's getting a job anyway you know? So someone please just tell my mom that I will be JUST FINE!!! If I can't do this now, how will I be able to do it next year to Hawaii for her birthday? I need to experience these things myself, weather or not they like it. As for the rest of my family, Amy is just making me mad because she;s not as funny as she thinks she is when it comes to picking on me, Sandy has turned into a smaller version of Mandy and that really bugs me, Mandy, is well Mandy, and I just can't stand her....like AT ALL, Dawn...shes not bothering me, she's kinda a dork, but it's cool, at least I don't have to share a room with anyone else, Christiane is fine too, I did get kinda mad caz she took the front seat from me, and idk I guess I just feel that I had earned the front seat, because I did have to go through two other sisters you know? Then all of a sudden someone just takes my rightful place you know? But I guess I just didn't tell her caz I don't think she will understand because she's the oldest in her family ...if you are raeding this though Christiane, I am sorry, I just don't react well to change, you know I am a stubborn Taruas. Ya, anyway...then we have Andrea here...I absolutally LOVE this girl, but I hate that she is friends with mandy, because mandy walk all over her and it makes me want to just smack her sooo hard you know....anyway. last thing...there is this really cute guy that I met last night at Bible study, I don't know if I do like him caz I just met him, but I think there is potential, but Christiane likes him too, and she likes a lot of guys tho...so CHristiane tell me the truth would you get nmad at me if I started talking to him more and stuff, caz if u REALLY like him I won't I promise!!okay, I think that's all...I am good for now...how's that for letting it all out? Thanks for listening, I will write later, alrighty, bye <3

Amys House

2005-07-04T01:25:00.000-07:00

Well I went to Amys house this weekend. That was exciting. Well I guess some things were more exciting than others. Poker was really fun,so was exercising, so were the movies and going out to eat, other than that it was pretty lame. No swimming and no drinks like we were suppost to do, but idk....whatever happened there. Anyway, I'm not going to talk about anything else that's bothering me caz the onll people who read this anyway are Christiane and mom so what's the point if they're part of the prob?...and dont go asking me what did i do, caz i dont want to talk to u guys so just please leave me alone

Another Boring Day

2005-06-26T14:19:00.000-07:00

Well, yesterday and today have both been the same, super boring! I erally want to go out with some friends and do stuff, but they are either out of town now, too busy, or just don't like me I guess.....oh well, ummmm nothing new, Dawn left this morning with Jason again, I really want them to get married, but nooo she doesn't want to, LAME!! I really like him and I want them to get together....oh well, Sandy is with Amy, probably eating everything they have, that little piggy lol, Mandy is a pain in the neck as always, Mom and Dad are just, I don't know, around...and I'm just here, bored, like I said, wanting something to do, like REALLY bad, the begining of the summer I had to turn down a few parties, and now there aren't any, and my mom wouldn't let me go to one with Marlus last night, which is understandable. After all, she doesn't know the kid, I hardly do, so oh well....yeah, well I think I'm just going to check out my myspace now so talk to y'all later <33 Fawn

Last Night and Today

2005-06-25T13:45:00.000-07:00

Well, last night was pretty fun, I went to my friend Sara's Birthday party. It was kind of slow at first, but aren't all parties? Then some more of my school friends like Ashley and Stephen showed up and I was able to actually talk to people. There were some fun conversations with people, and some not so great. Stephen and I got into A conversation about "Simon" that was great....It made me feel even more depressed about him than before, I don't know what it is about this guy, I just hope that it doesn't last that much longer because he has caused me a lot of trouble. Funny thing is, he has no idea that HE caused it...Oh well. Anyway, yeah after I left the party with Ashley and Stephen, we saw this huge ugly spider!! It was like right in front of me I was freaking out! Anyway....I woke up around 12 or 12:30ish today, cleaned the kitchen, and got on here. Some kids that my mom babysat a long time ago are over, they are sooo cute and sweet, and growing up way too fast! Exciting huh? Well I guess I won't bore anyone with anything else, so I will write another one soon <33 Fawn

A Million things that make me happy

2005-06-25T13:30:00.000-07:00

Ok well I took Christiane's idea, I think, I am going to write One Million things that make me happy, okay, well I will add as I think of them okay?

1. Friends
2. Shopping
3. Movies
4. Singing
5. Rain
6. Sun
7. Laughing
8. Boys
9. Family
10.My Nicknames
11.Shoes
12.Shirts
13.Purses
14.Small Things
15.Shiny Things
16.Jewlery
17.Lilies And Roses
18.Presents Given With The Heart
19.Notes
20.Ice Cream
21.CDs
22.Radio
23.Computer
24.IM'ing With My Friends
25.Getting E-mail, Or Written Letters
26.Yummy Smelly Stuff
27.Candy
28.Coloring
29.Driving With Friends
30.My Room
31.Angels
32.God
33.Ebay
34.Stuffed Animals
35.Pictures
36.Sports:
a)Vollyball
b)Cheer
c)Softball
d)Track and Field
e)Basketball
f) Bowling
37.Acting In School Plays
38.Singing By Myself And In Chior
39.Swimming
40.Water Fights
41.Getting Kissed
42.Hugs!
43.Dreaming
44.Helping People
45.Giving Advice
46.Painting My Nails
47.Attension (Not Too Much But Not Too Little)
48.Making Things
49.Art
50.Cell Phones
51.Writting In My Diary
52.Getting Things Off Of My Chest
53.Funny People
54.Nice People
55.Just....People :)
56.The Stars
57.Moon
58.Learning
59.Being Able To Succeed At Something
60.Freedom
61.Cute Pens And Pencils
62.Watching Football Practice!
63.Magazines
64.Books
65.Medicine That Makes Me Feel Better
66.Random Things
67.Parties
68.Having Stuff To Do
69.Not Being Bored
70.Buying Presents For Other People
71.Money
72.Starbucks (Fraps)
73.Hats
74.Hearts
75.Love
76.My Bed
77.Pillows
78.Blankets
79.Disney Characters
80.Princesses
81.Baby Animals
82.Killer Whales
83.Road Trips
84.Mexico
85.Snorkeling
86.Collecting
87.Babies
88.The Bible
89.Snow Globes
90.Birds Singing
91.Markers
92.Soft Tissues
93.Taking Hot Showers Or Baths
94.All Nighters
95.Being Thrown Into A Pool
96.Dancing
97.Slow Dancing With Someone I Really Like
98.Coloring My Hair To Something I Like And That Looks Good
99.Blinkies
100.Walking
101.Sometimes, Being By Myself, Just To Relax
102.Hearing My Favorite Song On The Radio
103.Getting Good Grades
104.Beaches
105.Sunsets
106.Sunrises
107.Rainbows
108.Clouds
109.Fuzzy Things
110.Christians

My Friends

2005-06-24T15:15:00.000-07:00

Well okay, I think I get this, and in my last post I said I was going to write a little bit about my friends, so here we go, but before I do, I want y'all to know that I won't be able to fit EVERYTHING about each person, it is just going to be brief and to the point okay!? alrighty here we go:

Christiane: She is "The Girl With A Smile" (literally look at her blog) She is one of the sweetest most helpful people I know, she is gorgeous, and I am lucky to have her moving in with me sometime this week! I love her to death she is like another older sister, only she is my friend too. She has always been there for me, and gives some of the best advice!

Jill: A.K.A. JELLO!! lol Jill is sooooooo sweet! She is good at everything! I look up to her, shes smart gorgeous, talented, and well, ya good at everything! She thinks shes not, but everyone knows she is! I love Jill to death and I would do anyhting fo her!

Ariel: I have known Ariel for the longest time, well okay not really but it sure feels like it! She is practically my twin, we know everything about each other and we have some crazy memories! I love Ariel to death, I know I keep saying that about all my friends, but it is how I feel about all of them! She is also gorgeous and super sweet, if you don't know her shes kinda quiet, but not unless you really know her, she is like SUPER loud lol!!

Danielle: OMG! lol I love her sooooo much! She is so funny and bubbly!! She is sooo cute and talented! She is the BEST TAPDANCER EVER!! lol I should stop now caz I can write a lot

Sam: Sam is very quiet but shes so much fun and is kinda crazy sumtimes! She will be a model when shes older, because shes in love with the camera lol

Christina aka X-ina! and Sarah: these sisters are soo much alike, cute and super friendly, probably the most christian conservative people that i know, but because I like to have fun, whenever they are with me, I make them fun!! hehe i love them!

Katie: Katie is soooo pretty! She is so crazy and fun! We have way too much fun together, like at the mall, and walking though the desert, haha, okay anyway....

Jessie: Jessie is a person I know I can trust because she tells me everything and I tell her everything, she is pretty and crazy!

Actually, maybe this wasn't a good idea....because I have sooo many friends, and I don't want people to be like omg I wasn't on there when all I did was forget to put them on here, so I am just going to stop with them, because I just feel so bad because I have soo many other great people, and it would tak me forever to put on here, so yeah, if you are my friend, you know, and if you want to know how I feel about you, just ask ;) luv ya! <33 me

First Blog

2005-06-24T14:34:00.000-07:00

Well, here we go....I am new to this, so I have no idea what to write on these things, so I guess I can start with me. My name is Fawn, I am 16, turned it on May 19th. I have many interests and hobbies including the sports I play such as volleyball, Basketball, Cheer, Track and Field, and Softball! Ummm, I love to be in the musicals and plays at our school, and I love to sing! :) I have some of the best friends in the whole world! I can give you a description of each one in my next blog okay? I am addicted to Starbucks, Shopping, Movies, Purses, Sunglasses, and most of all Flip-Flops! I like anything small and shiny, I guess I'm kind of a girly girl, but I don't know if you could completely say that because I love sports. I'm the kind of girl that will pretty much try anything once. I am Christian, and I love God with everything I have! I'm involved with a Bible Study on Wednesday nights, which is very fun! Actually, I just got back from Mexico on Sunday night, that was a great trip! We passed out the New testament in Spanish to the poorer Mexicans, I got to snorkel for the very first time and that was one of the most fun and exciting things I have ever done! I am an easy going person, and I care a lot about everyone that I meet....I'm very self conscious, and I'm trying to work on my ability to like myself better and my looks, I guess I just don't like the thought of sounding egotistic because that is one of the WORST things that I think can be in a person....lol well I think I have written enough for now, and mom is telling me to get off so that my annoying little sister can get on so I will talk to y'all later <33>